Inspiration

What inspires you?

Songs, movies, poems, can inspire me... It changes the way I think about things when I read something meaningful.

When I was younger and new to the internet having signatures at the bottom of every email was "a must" I don't know if it still matters now so every now and then, I think it was in grade 4 when having an email address was compulsory.

I have a few I can remember:

“Life is not about the breaths we take, but the moments that take our breath away”

This line made me daydream a lot... I tried to recall what moments took my breath away, what times made me say “Awwwwhhhhh”.. What scenes made me teary eyed... and what movies made me cry... Still amidst all the daydreaming, I couldn’t remember a specific “moment”. Was something wrong with me that I can’t feel strong emotion towards something mushy? Are my “moments” too common to take my breath away?

Then I really thought about it, I was just kidding myself. There were a lot of moments that took my breath away. The simple things that made me smirk, and laugh to myself. The common things that made me remember with the thought that “hey, I want that to happen to me when I get older”

Like how a guy tries everything just to get a girls attention. How he asks all her friends for “tips” on how to get her to like him. When an elderly couple goes to the mall and both of them walking slowly because they both have arthritis and yet, they still have the sweetness when you see them holding hands I want to have that. Even now, it makes me smile..

“Everybody smiles in the same language”

Now that’s an easy one. It shows that we are all living in the same world, breathing the same air. We shouldn’t discriminate. We should be together in peace.

How about songs that inspired you?

How about the poems?

How about the text messages?

Have you thought about what inspires you?

Oh Crappy Day

Crappy day, what a [inset swear word here] day.

It's one of those days that even if you started your day with a smile, you can't expect it to flow through the day. I rarely get offended with people say to me. (Well, at least that's what I think..)Anyway, eversince I started working, I felt better when I work with men. They seem to careless about what they say, and say it as it is. I've been lucky enough to work with guys that didn't take advantage. They even appreciated my work so I loved working with them it didn't matter the pay. I only moved if it really called for, like the company closed it's Australian office, like I had to move interstate, like there wasn't any favourable transportation at night. Those kind of things. But all in all, I loved working, I considered myself lucky cause when I wake up each day, I actually wanted to go to work. Considering the long trip to work, it didn't matter because I liked what I did. I also liked the fact that I'm the youngest so, I felt invincible in a way. I always had my way and learned from my mistakes without really getting the shits from the boss.

Well, that changed NOW. Eversince I reported to this new girl at work. What a [insert swear word again] tragedy. I am learning a lot but the way I'm learning is not how I focus. It's more learning from being nagged... that's the worst way to learn. I am a fast learner but learning with her doesn't seem to be going anywhere and she's considered to take on another admin person to "help out" because we're going to be "busy because it's the end of financial year". Yeah right psycho, it was as if she was telling me indirectly that I'm not fast enough so we need somebody else to help out. I guess everyone can see a different reason to how she said it, what she was trying to say and what she really meant. But for all I care is that, I'm doing my job right, I know what I'm doing is helpful to the guys and I know one way or another they appreciate what I'm doing for them.

I think it's silly to share my thoughts over this blog, but it's just burning inside me that I needed some words out of my brain so it can occupy more swear words. It's how I can release frustration and anger I guess. But everything else was ok. I had the same laughter with the other guys, ate chocolate with my cubicle buddy, had spicy tuna and rice for lunch yum! and bought my ticket for my holiday in June!

Another thing I'm crappy about is how they don't let dogs in houses. What kind of cruelty is that! I wish I had a house already. Just a normal, small house with floorboards or tiles and a small backyard for Cupid during the day. He can stay inside when I'm there he doesn't shed anyway. He gets groomed every 4 weeks and bath depends on his situation. I miss walking with him and feeding him everyday. Oh, how 6 months have passed.

Have you ever seen a dog pull on his leash while walking with his owner in the park because its so excited to be out of the house? That's what I'm feeling, that I'm struggling to get out and just want to be out there with Cupid. I really wish I can have a house I can rent.

Oh, what a crappy day.